*(originally posted to Facebook on 7/7/16)
Life is hard and ironic. It sneaks up on you. Melissa has a word of the day feature on her phone. Today's word was velleity (vuh-lee-i-tee), noun: a mere wish, unaccompanied by an effort to obtain it.
When I first read that this morning I thought "what I am supposed to do with this information?". It hurt, because I wish for all the world to have her here with me. But the more I have thought about it, the more I realize that it is not a word she would have ever used.
She put max effort in to everything she did, every wish she had for this world. The thought of having a possible wish and not working towards it would not have been her style.
Today is an awful day, but it is slightly less awful than yesterday. There will be peaks and valleys. We wish for the peaks, we have to accept the valleys. But to take a page from her, I cannot have a 'mere wish' for peaks without working for them. I do not accept the velleity.