*originally posted to Facebook 7/21/16
Melissa and Matthew made it home today. I built a special shelve for her in our bedroom so that she will always be near, always be the first thing I see each morning. My journey has only just begun, it will be long and arduous. Having a part of them with me is not same as having them here, but it is what I have to accept.
I have started seeing a counselor to work through some of these feelings. There is no shame or concern with that. It is helping.
I was asked, what makes me happy? Honestly, I don't know right now. There are so many emotions in my life right now. Some of them approach acceptance, but none approach happiness right now. The happiness will come, just not yet.